urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse matisse matisse 2009-12-21T01:31:23Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:520465 2009-12-21T01:31:23Z 2009-12-21T01:31:23Z looks like i get to go to paris (and amsterdam) in april. sometimes my parents are awesome and just buy me plane tickets. or let me use their frequent flier miles. <br /><br />happy aniversery in paris... or maybe it'll be in amsterdam. that might be more aproprate for the date. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:519986 2009-11-23T10:21:56Z 2009-11-23T10:21:56Z i worked a great festival these last three weeks. traditional artist who are inovating within their forms. amazing work. i think i made a friend too, so thats good. its complex, but what is life isnt?<br /><br />i watched amazing shows tonight. i feel like i fell in love three times, and then had my heart broken. strikes are so fucking bittersweet. <br /><br />we sat in the subway station. talking and not saying anything but understanding. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:512502 2008-09-25T01:19:47Z 2008-09-25T01:19:47Z i adore that "i kissed a girl" song. <br /><br />i've been listening to (too much?) elliott smith.<br /><br />my mom is in town. so far, its been ok. shes been here almost a week, and leaves saturday. today she bought be stuff at ikea. and sushi. huzzah! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:511667 2008-09-11T19:06:04Z 2008-09-11T19:06:04Z i like my job very much once the show opens. i like the fact that i work in theater, that i work with people who play dress up, that i make magic and have fun and people leave smiling. <br /><br />yesterday i did yoga with rodney yee. well, rodney was on tv. but i did do the yoga. <br /><br />andrews show opens friday, kiele comes satuday and the fun begins on sunday night!<br /><br />LOVE! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:510863 2008-08-04T19:17:45Z 2008-08-04T19:17:45Z kiele came to visit last weekend on her way home from hawaii. it was lovely to have her, tho not for long, and the weather was less than perfect. but she's moving out here and that makes up for it.<br /><br />last week was my (very first ever!) pre-pro week. the commute to san jose isnt too bad.. the train takes about the same time as driving, and lets me read a book. but i do get a parking spot and i'm renting a car for tech and while the show is running. but the cal train for during rehearsals is great. and i can stay as jans sometimes. i might do that thursday. we'll see. rehearsal starts tommorrow! i'm excited and scared. this afternoon we'll be taping out the floor and setting up the room. yippie!<br /><br />andrew got a "real" part time job being the theater manager for counterpulse. which is awesome. i may apply to be an artist in residence there they are so cool. <br /><br />i wish sleep made me feel less sleepy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:510561 2008-07-05T19:09:31Z 2008-07-05T19:09:31Z happy (late) america day. <br /><br />andrew and i didnt do much. we saw the Mime Troupe show (www.sfmt.org) which was ok. not as good as GodFellas, tho i might be biased. then we grilled some hot dogs and corn and watched TV. we didnt even go to the fireworks. it was SO frikkin foggy. it was lame. but we watched three diffrent sets of fireworks on tv. san jose, dc, and boston. so it was ok. <br /><br />today is cleaning day! so far we've cleaned the dishes and sink, vaacumed the kitchen and bathrooom, started the laundry and began cleaning the living room. we have lots of cleaning left, but its a good start. <br /><br />my life is pretty lame right now. baby sitting, watching tv, cooking, cleaning... i'm a loser with no friends. at least, no friends over the age of three. <br /><br />but soon! kiele visits! yippie! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:510259 2008-06-17T20:10:20Z 2008-06-17T20:10:20Z well, i got a job! I'll be ASMing The Foreginer at San Jose Rep. yippie! now i just need to figure out the whole comuting thing. and tell my babies' mommas that i cant do the co-op for about 5 weeks. i hope that that desnt mean that i've lost my babies. oh well. <br /><br />now to figure out zipcars and rental cars and used cars and which one i can afford. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:510099 2008-06-16T21:07:55Z 2008-06-16T21:07:55Z we'll be heading to the airport soon, time to fly back to the west coast. <br /><br />it was good to be home, but i was fairly sick the first 5 days, which made the visit a lot lamer than i would have liked. going to ben and lindsey's wedding was a delight. it was the first wedding i've been to that i really enjoyed. and the party was fun too! it was nice to see vera and esme, and to meet vera's ladyfriend. andrew had a good time too. we swung by sturbridge village for a few hours before going home, whcih was neat. i hadnt been there in a loooong time. <br /><br />the time in bmore was less, but i was well so that was good. brunch with miss hurricane was awesome. and visiting with nikki was fun, but all too brief as always. and i managed to NOT gain any of the weight back that i lost while sick even though there was far too much food involved. huzzah for 128 pounds!<br /><br />time to go back to our real lives i guess. i'm photographing the mimes tommorrow, and taking care of the baby on thursday. back to the grindstone. but at least i'll be able to buy some "meds" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:509760 2008-06-02T14:08:25Z 2008-06-02T14:08:25Z i cant sleep. i woke up at 5am. its now 7am. i dont have to be up for another hour and a half. i'm tired, but my body wont sleep. i hate this.<br /><br />andrew and i are headed east. its exciting because<br />a. ben is getting married! yay ben!<br />b. seeing people like kiele and nikki (and maybe even allison and holland and ben and hurricane and lily and evan and alisha)<br />c. seeing family<br />d. this is the first time we're going TOGETHER, like flying all the same flights and everything. generally we travel to see our familys alone and overlap some of the trip, but this time we planned it together. and thats exciting for me. <br /><br />we leave tuesday late, get into boston early wenesday. friday and saturday we're gonna be in sturbridge. then back to boston. we're in baltimore june 11-16.<br /><br />i think i am going to miss the babies a little more than i should, but thats only becasue they are so awesome. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:509441 2008-05-26T19:25:56Z 2008-05-26T19:25:56Z we had a little cook-out party last night. will starr, his sister kate and lisa (and flower!) came. we had some good eats, lisa had to go, and then andrew, me and a the starrs rocked out to guitar hero. it was pretty awesome. it was a very small party (i HAD invited nearly 30 people, only 1 of whom came) but it was fun. i am trying NOT to feel like i have no friends, but rather that i had an awesome boyfriend and busy friends, or something. <br /><br />i still really really really want a puppy. <br /><br />tommorrow i am getting my vagina check out. so that should be good. wenesday we go to SIX FLAGS!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:509391 2008-05-20T18:29:48Z 2008-05-20T18:29:48Z so i was all booked up this week- baby sitting all day for henry on monday and tuesday. but very very very very early monday henry's grandfather got very unwell, and off the family went to florida. which means i have two days off. <br /><br />yesterday andrew and i cleaned and played lots of guitar hero. we also watched a fair amount of tv. that seems to be what we do. <br /><br />today i am going to go to a musem and look at art and be all cultured. i am only a little sad because it looks like taking public transit to the Leigon on Honor will take an hour. boo. <br /><br />i've been in a really strange mood today. hopefully it will pass. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:509137 2008-05-14T19:08:55Z 2008-05-14T19:08:55Z andrew came home. i like having him home from europe.<br /><br />trojan women is over. i'm happy to have free evenings, and watch jepordy and cook dinner and cuddle with my boyfriend. but i am sad not to see those poeple every night. <br /><br />i'm baby sitting alot. it makes me happy to spend time with the babies. <br /><br />i dont realy know what else to say. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:508894 2008-04-16T22:08:37Z 2008-04-16T22:08:37Z nikkis coming to play wiht me tommrrow! i am so very excited. <br /><br />the show goes well. the babies are happy. at least when they arent crying.<br /><br />i have an interview at san jose rep in a few weeks. will i buy a car? <br /><br />i miss my boyfriend. france is a silly place to go. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:508513 2008-04-04T17:57:13Z 2008-04-04T17:57:13Z andrew left me on tuesday. off he went to gay ole pairee. oh well. <br /><br />tech went well. the dress runs went well, and the show is still only an hour long. and tonight- first preview! im excited. i dont think i'll fuck up. so thats good. <br /><br />the babies are awesome. and mostly i mean henry. he give a nice little cuddle. yesterday we went on an adventure back to my apartment, because i forgot to take my pills. it was fun. i forgot again today, but i'll have to do a mad dash home between babies and call because i've got two today. and i am NOT carrying TWO 15 pound babies up that hill. or on the BART for that matter. <br /><br />ummm... yeah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:508254 2008-03-29T20:42:06Z 2008-03-29T20:42:06Z things are getting sorted out... i've managed to replace my credit card already, and i got a new cellphone yesterday. i went to the DMV and got a temporary license yesterday. still waiting on my ATM card, and i have to replace a bunch of other things, but at least things are on track to being back to normal before andrew goes to france.<br /><br />tech this weekend. in the theater 9.30AM till 11.30 PM today and tommorrow. woo? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:508060 2008-03-27T08:31:06Z 2008-03-27T08:31:06Z i got mugged tonight. <br /><br />gone: computer, cellphone, wallet, BART pass, passport, book, journal... a shit load of pens. <br /><br />i'm not hurt or anything. the neighbors were very kind. the cops were.. cops. i'm just upset. and cranky that i've lost the photos AND the journal-ing from my trip to india. lame lame lame. i've lost all the things that i would hate to lose- all the cards i'll have to replace, getting a new license and a new passport is going to suck. and my journal means nothing to other poeple and EVERYTHING to me. i hate it. <br /><br />i dunno what to say but lame lame lame. <br /><br />and i'm sorry that i've been lame about posting. i've been into the paper journal lately, but i guess now that that is gone, i'll be online more or something. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:507902 2008-03-12T02:31:49Z 2008-03-12T02:31:49Z i am sick. <br /><br />i hate being sick. <br /><br />andrew is in santa fe, which means i am sick and alone, the worst possible combination. <br /><br />lame lame lame. <br /><br />i missed the first rehersal of Trojan Women tonight. my sm, June, is freaking awsome. she told me to go home and rest feel better and not feel guilty, which i did. and i do a little still, but she was really good to talk to. and andrew has been calling me so i'm not going crazy. i saw the doctor today, which was a misberable time to get there (the two buses to the doc are not so much fun, even when you dont feel like puking), but i feel much better having been checked out and told what to do. <br /><br />but mostly i feel sick and achy and cranky. lame lame lame. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:507589 2008-02-03T23:25:12Z 2008-02-03T23:25:12Z i adore being back in the good old U.S. of A. just in time to watch THE SUPERBOWL. <br /><br />tom brady is fucking hot. i said it. you thought it. yes ben, i mean you. <br /><br />massive india-date to follow. after the pats kick ass and go 19-0 and make fucking history. <br /><br />I'M SO FRIGGIN PATRIOTIC IT HURTS!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:507343 2008-01-24T15:18:07Z 2008-01-24T15:18:07Z im in india<br /><br />it is amazing, overwhleming, exausting, beautiful, dirty, busy, ugly, crowded, strange and strangly familiar. <br /><br />so far we've been in new delhi, chandigar, dharmsala, amritsar, reshikesh, hardiwar, agra and now we're in jaipur. next is pushkar, then jodpur, jaipsar and back to delhi. it has been, and will continu to be quiet exciting. <br /><br />love,<br />me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:506930 2008-01-10T15:51:03Z 2008-01-10T15:51:03Z so i am leaving for india in like 12 hours. i feel underprepared. but i dont think there is anything i could do to become prepared. especially at this point. i am certainly more prepared than my mother, but that is generally the way things are. <br /><br />i had a lovely little dinner party last night. kiele, jonasz, alisha, ben and lindsey all came. and i think people liked eachother and had a nice time. we drank 2 1/2 bottles of wine, which i was impressed by. i'm generally impressed by the amount of wine that can be drunk. or soemthing. <br /><br />i'm excited and scared, and dont have much else to say. <br /><br />so i guess this entry is done.<br /><br />love,<br />me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:506821 2007-12-29T15:03:43Z 2007-12-29T15:03:43Z today i am picking up andrew at the airport (yay!) on our way to go SKIING (double yay!) my parents, brother, his girlfriend, andrew and i are spending 3 days in NH. i hope its fun. i am super excited. <br /><br />i am also tired. <br /><br />love,<br />me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:506515 2007-12-25T03:48:02Z 2007-12-25T03:48:02Z happy christmas everyone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:506060 2007-12-06T07:47:58Z 2007-12-06T07:47:58Z i was going to write an update, and wish everyone a happy hanukah. but lj is freakin on me or something. i dunno if this message will make it out into the wide world of the web... but we can hope. <br /><br />love! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:505750 2007-11-25T21:07:12Z 2007-11-25T21:07:12Z i want to be a guest on one of those shows where they dress you. best would be Time Gunn's Guide to Style, because i adore Tim Gunn. I am a great guest because <br />1. i ought to be dressing like a grown-up, now that i am in my mid-twenties<br />2. i have a career where i should be dressing professionally, but i need professional looking clothes that i can work in- shoes i can walk miles in, bottoms that i can climb ladders in etc.<br />3. i dont have clothes that fit well, since i gained so much weight on the ITP steriods. but now i need clothes that fit, since i'm back at a wieght that i am happy with (but still losing, hopefully)<br />4. i dont know how to deal with my monster boobs!<br />5. i like pretty clothes.<br />6. i am poor.<br /><br />thats that. everyone should write tim gunn lots of letters, and get bravo to buy me new, pretty, professional clothes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:matisse:505482 2007-11-24T06:46:11Z 2007-11-24T06:46:11Z i went home for thanksgiving. <br /><br />i left sf last wenesday night, got in thursday morning. i love/hate the red eye. i cant describe it any other way. <br /><br />i my first time out and about, i ran into jonasz in harvard sqaure. it was a lovely, suprising moment. i got to hang out with kiele and jonasz a nice amount. we had went to the diner, and had pizza and they intoduced me to the best BBQ in boston (over three evenings). kiele even made wonderful cranbery nut bread. <br /><br />i also saw family, and pseudo-family. and i had a classic dinner at not-your-average-joes with alisha. and we talked about lots of things we needed to talk about. and i feel really good about that. <br /><br />and tonight! i got a text from miss biggles and a call from the hurricane! it's almost like i'm popular or something. <br /><br />but anyway... i made thanksgiving on thursday, which was a lot of fun for me. i made: a wonderful turkey with stuffing, mash potatoes, sweet potatoes, green beans, corn, rolls, and cranbery sauce. i brought leftovers back to SF with me, but alas, not enough. but i did bring enough pie- choclate pecan, and danish pear (with MARZIPAN! how those dutch love their marzipan!).<br /><br />i think thats all the babbling i have in me right now. other topics for a later date:<br />1. the cranio-muscular/energy work<br />2. the beautiful foliage in boston<br />3. the even more beautiful afternoon snowfall. <br />4. an additional week in india (?)<br />5. how much i miss and adore my boyfriend.<br /><br /><br />LOVE!!